SELFISH Nat

I have been too busy to post.
I have been too self involved to post.
Mostly I have been too drunk to post!

Oh well the world goes on, with or without my posts.
Minus miss Ebby, I don't think any1 missed my blog. (Of course for part of that time my mum was in town, so that would explain her lack of complaint).

It has been a long long time since I last update and too much has happened that I am far too lazy to write about. Perhaps some point soon I will update the photos at least.

Short highlights -
* I completed 1 year in HK, and had a great night out to celebrate! (any excuse for a night out!)
* HK Rugby 7's - AMAZING! Lots of fun, Lots of hot boys, and I even like Rugby when its in 7 minute tasters
* Little Sis Visits - Boz came to town and it was amazingly painless, and even fun. Oh and she hardly drinks, so I was almost sober for the wk!
* Big Hike - We did a mega big hike in the Sai Kung area and swam in beautiful clear water (which is a rare thing in HK) - photos to come.
* Mum visits - mum came to town, and it was just like old times. Mum being mum, Nat being moody. Oh well it was worth it (for the food) - and the other bits ;) Love Ya Mum. (oh and Sharon misses u Im sure!)
* Another work Singapore trip - only notable as I had a terrible cold, felt like Shit, and they put me in a second class hotel, instead of my fullerton.
* Manager no 3 - Got another new manager at work (who is based in Oz). She sounds far too enthusiastic (and american!). Shame I'll be leaving.
* My work nemesis resigned - My arch nemesis has resigned, she's based in Oz so it wont change my life much, but she finishes next week and I'll be happy. (Also I feel like I've won - who knows what - but I''ve beat her ;)

That's about it I think (I may have missed out huge bits but I cant remember).

Now more recently, this wkend I wrote a letter to my landlord giving my 2 months notice. I had decided for a while that I would head back to Oz for my 30th in August, and given my hatred of my job I would quit. But I guess giving notice made it final. Saying that, I'm not regretting my decision, and in fact I'm very much looking forward to giving notice at work! But it has highlighted the fact that I have no idea what I want to do post my party and august celebrations. I thought I wanted to go travelling again (I mean, I always do). I went to Singapore airlines and Qantas yesterday ( I had to do something in between my webex training to cheer up my day). And do you know what my first thought was?
"Shit thats expensive!"

Now for those who don't know me so well, my standard response is "Oooooh, how many places can I go to? How long can I not work?"

There could be a few reasons for this. Some may say I obviously haven't earnt enough in HK (possibly, compared to London), others have responded that maybe I'm growing up. Mandy and I seem to agree that HK is too much like a holiday. I just don't feel like I've worked hard enough here to need a holiday yet. This was my thought last night, and since then I've gained confidence with the decision - so no travelling for me.

Which really leaves me at a loose end. It''s what I always do. So what other options are there?

A. Get a Job
This brings up the whole question of where do I want to get a job, or what kind of job do I want. Neither which I know the answer to. I look through Uk/Aus/HK/Tokyo job boards and none of the jobs appeal to me. I look at IT jobs, I look at training jobs, I look at random other jobs - none of it appeals. So lets agree on no to a job. Im just a bit over jobs, they dont challenge me, they dont appreciate me and they bore the shit out of me.

Ok maybe Ive never found the right job but I think its time I take my career (or lack of it) into my own hands. I think I wanna start my own business (sound certain dont i).

WHY?

Why not ;) I haven't done it before, while many of my friends have. I am intelligent, opinionated, impatient and organised (among other things), and I've always wanted to leave something behind before I vanish from this world, and webex is not doing it for me.

And FUCK IT - im willing to throw $$ away bumming around the world, why not set myself a real challenge. If it screws up I can always get a crap IT job to pay the bills.

WHAT?

No clue.

Seriously No idea.

If you know me, you know what I've always wanted is a cafe type joint. But unfortunately I'm far too much of a realist to believe it has any chance of success. There are far too many in Oz! Yep maybe HK or UK could do with a couple more, but it;d be super expensive and far too hard without mummy and daddy.

So what else?

Please email or post your suggestions here.

Any other comments on my life welcome...

Oh and for those in oz, Nats 30th Birthday on Friday 17th August, keep it free (in sydney - Benny I expect u there!) And accomodation supplied for those I love

Ooops I was about to end off, and realise I haven't really explained the title. Basically I have been wrapped up in all this, this wk, and avoiding the family. Jen will recognise it for what it is, once I know im leaving I have a bit of a habit to give up on it. Did it in London, and doing it here again. Who knows, maybe it will pass when I get over my post teenage angst.

Alright now Im done - bedtime for Nat - it sounds like I need it right?